Part Heartbreak, Part Happiness!!

My regular blog readers should know well about my best friend, Robin. I mention her alot. This past weekend she came to stay with Dot and I. Dot and I had three of the best days of our lives with her here. Not only, do we both love Robin for the way she energizes everything and everyone she's around; she also brought Dot and I closer than we've ever been before.

For the past few weeks, we've gotten spoiled. Robin had broken up with my other friend, Adam, and she was single again. That gave her more time to spend with us. Last night, they got together again. I'm happy for both of them. I'm especially happy for Robin. She deserves all the happiness in the world. I will, however, miss having her around Dot and I with as much frequency. But, that's just me being selfish. As she told me this past weekend, I have to learn to share her.

Last night, Robin also made me remember (like I'd really forget - LOL) why she is so special to me. The three of us (Robin, Adam, and I) were at Jigg's, one of our regular karaoke spots, when someone collapsed to the floor requiring the EMT's to be called and a gurney to be brought in. Even while she was busy rekindling her relationship with Adam, she noticed I wasn't my normal self. She asked me if I was crying. I wasn't, but, I was concerned for the patron plus remembering the last time I saw a gurney come into a building. It was when my Mom was wheeled out of the house for the last time. She dropped everything she was doing and put her full attention on me. She quickly turned her chair to face me and engaged me in a little game to distract me. It worked as I was quickly able to move on to my next song in a much lighter mood.

That type of insight into my feelings is why she is my sister even though we're not linked by DNA. She keeps a very important part of my Mom alive for me. I don't think I even knew what it was exactly until just now. My Mom could also just know when I needed some extra support. I miss her, but, Robin fills a very empty void for me. She assured me last night that nothing would change for us and we'd continue to have time to ourselves in the future.

So, I'm heartbroken that I won't have as much time with Robin. I won't lie about that. But, I'm very happy for her and Adam. I'm also, most importantly, very happy to be with Dot. And, I'm happy to have the full meaning of JDAR back!! Will the circle be unbroken, guy and gals!! Hmm... Sounds like a song cue if I ever heard one.